Maybe more to myself than to anyone - this parenting business is challenging. It's hard. It can be very lonely, especially in a culture that is anti-child and unsupportive of nurturing. In a culture where many of us live far from family and close supports. So be kind. Be kind to yourself. Hold yourself in the cradle of loving kindness. Hold your children in it. Hold your friends, your family, strangers. But start with yourself. You are basically good, sane, wise and compassionate. It is your true nature, even if you doubt it. Your good heart and mind are always there, underneath all the other stuff that makes you feel sad, lonely, resentful, angry, jealous and so on. All that stuff is passing, changing, impermanent.
Your good, brave heart is underneath it, beating, strong, calling, calling to you all the time. Hold it in your hands and rock it, as gently as a newborn baby. Be gentle to yourself. Give yourself something you need, some space, some kindness, some love. Sending you all a huge hug.